:(

I came home from Tahoe yesterday, went to check on my cat and found him dead.
I just got a haircut. Asked them to cut off 1/2 inch and layer the front, but they cut off about 3 inches, made my hair thin, and one side is longer.
I resent being Checker-less and ugly.
Maybe I'll just put on a ton of makeup to distract people from my ugly hair. Or hair extensions? But those are expensive.

jimmy eat world - closer

everyday i get a little closer dear
will you love me darling when i get there?
i'll need sunshine, i'll need rest
pour us whiskey, water, kiss

everyday i try a little harder dear
but those things you do, i don't wanna hear
you'll have yours, i'll have mine
no one guilty, no one right

remember me, she said
smiling
write my name somewhere safe
touch and taste
fades with space
i'll never be who you'll dream

my cat is dying...

he is in his 80s in human years.
his fur is now dull and ruffled. he is so skinny and walks with a limp.
it's the saddest thing :(

"We are a family!"

So one day, I woke up and realized that I forgot my Dad's birthday. I sent him an Ecard a week late.
And today, I was notified that my ecard was just picked up. And I got a Thank You card from my dad:

"You were one week late to send me the card, and I'm more than one month late to read this email. Ha ha ha! We are a family! Love, Dad"

Hehe.

Ew

A dead spider just fell out of my book,
onto my pillow.

Oh man...

Really, I should start studying for Psych 166ac right now but I just remembered part of the dream I had last night, after reading about random facts...I recalled that one about how people eat spiders on accident during their sleep.
Not even sure how true that is but...

Last night I had the nastiest dream ever!
In this dream, I woke up and felt something sort of sticky and gross and heavy against my cheek. I touched it and there were all these tiny white balls in big clumps together (Realize that this is somewhat of an observer's view of me at the same time) stuck in my hair on the right side of my face.

They had a bit of a grainy feel to them, were a bit milky translucent colored...I took one and felt it between my fingers and thought it was a sort of candy at first.

Then I realized that they were not--they were spider eggs.

So I had these sticky spider eggs all over my hair, against my cheek. I decided, of course, to take them out ASAP, before they hatched of course! Ew!

So I got them out clump by clump then one by one. Wanted to wash my hair right away. I can't remember when I found this out in the dream, but my dad had put them in my hair while I was sleeping. Maybe he thought it was funny...he also put the spider on my face or something. Never found that spider.

But I was mad and told him that it was a good thing that they hadn't hatched, and that he put it on that side of my face rather than the other side where they would be directly against my cheek (My hair is parted unevenly) and might give me an infection or something. And of course, to NEVER do that again.

Analyze that...

Great I just looked up spider eggs (This is something I intended to do in the dream, I wanted to see if they really looked like that...AND THEY DO. except more opaque in the dream...that's why I thought they were weird candy things)

"Asian Pride Porn"

Really weird short movie by Greg Pak...read the screenplay and watched it in my AA Lit class.

Oh but life is unfair...

I am reading about family. Right now on the Influence of Parental Socialization:

"Mothers of very attractive infants are more affectionate and playful with their infants than mothers of infants with unappealing faces. When in public, mothers of infants with unappealing fces are more likely to pay attention to other ppl than their own infants. These mothers are also more likely to report that their infants interfere with their lives."

Bragging

I got good scores on the last 2 midterms I got back :)

34.5/35 for Asian American Lit
99/100 for Developmental

dido - thank you

my tea's gone cold, i'm wondering why i got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and i can't see at all
and even if i could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad

i drank too much last night, got bills to pay
my head just feels in pain
i missed the bus and there'll be hell today
i'm late for work again
and even if i'm there, they'll all imply i might not last the day
and then you call me and it's not so bad
it's not so bad

push the door i'm home at last and i'm soaking through and through
then you handed me a towel and all i see is you
and even if my house falls down now, i wouldn't have a clue
because you're near me and

i want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

Ugh

I just ate a whole loaf of French Cheese Bread.

So much for...

I think I'll just shut up from now on.

That's all.