This was a splendid weekend, full of awesome dreams. Here is one that Evan just told me:
B: i had a dream that your family came over to my house for 4th of july lol
B: but your dad was an army colonol
B: lol oh and you showed up too
B: and you were dating my old room mate rofl
B: it was a weird dream
B: your dad was angry with me
B: and then for some reason he became a white guy half way through the dream
This afternoon, Y and I decided to cuddle for 30 minutes, before he left. We both ended up falling asleep for 2 hours, and woke up at the same time, around 5. The awesome thing was, we both ended up dreaming about over-napping with each other!
Y's dream was cooler though--he went to Disneyland. Then he was on a cruise with me and his doggie to South Africa. We napped and then overslept so didn't get off where we were supposed to or something like that? So we were worried because the captain said he had to go all the way to the South Pole or something like that.
Mine was boring. We were napping in my room, over-napped til 8pm or so. When we woke up..he was like, "Oh well..." and got up and turned off the lights, and it was all dark. Then at another point in the dream, he was checking my email for me on my Dell. He was facing the back of the computer...and I was facing the front, wondering how he could see what he was doing. Turned out the screen reflected onto my wall.
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Awesome dreams aside, I also had some good times! Froyo and such with Joanne, Feist and dinner(I found her music terrific live...it is okay normally) with Y, and some very informative, though tiring training at BAWAR.
I returned to my childhood times by going to KFC and dippings my potato wedges into mashed potatoes and gravy. It was awesome, and I vow to do it again soon. Also got one of their delicious biscuits...mmmmm...I supposed next time I'll actually get chicken though!
Then today, Y and I Bulgogi-ed it up! And decided that we wanted to eat more--potato puffs and a Mission Fig Fold with Creme Fraiche from Gregoire--mmmmmmmm so good!
Now I've gymed and showered and feel so clean and refreshed. Research time!
Oh, of exes: I bumped into 2/3 of the guys I have dated in the past this week. One wasn't really an ex, I suppose...we never went out "seriously" due to my situation, but I still think it counts. Surprisingly pleasant both times. As in--it was nice to see them and talk to each other, and not too many confusing feelings arose from it.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Pain
THAT WAS HOW the little prince tamed the fox. And when the time to leave was near:
"Ah!" The fox said. "I shall weep."
"It's your own fault," the little prince said. "I never wanted to do you any harm, but you insisted that I tame you. . ."
"Yes, of course," the fox said.
"But you're going to weep!" said the little prince.
"Yes, of course." the fox said.
"Then you get nothing out of it?"
"I get something," the fox said, "because of the color of the wheat. Go look at the roses again. You'll understand that yours is the only rose in the world."
"Ah!" The fox said. "I shall weep."
"It's your own fault," the little prince said. "I never wanted to do you any harm, but you insisted that I tame you. . ."
"Yes, of course," the fox said.
"But you're going to weep!" said the little prince.
"Yes, of course." the fox said.
"Then you get nothing out of it?"
"I get something," the fox said, "because of the color of the wheat. Go look at the roses again. You'll understand that yours is the only rose in the world."
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
For me this is Heaven
the first star i see may not be a star
you can't do a thing but wait
so let's wait for one more...
and the time's such a clumsy time
i'm deciding if it's time
i'm careful but no sure how it goes
you can lose yourself in your courage
when the time we have now ends
when the big hand goes round again
can you still feel the butterflies?
can you still hear the last goodnight?
jimmy eat world
you can't do a thing but wait
so let's wait for one more...
and the time's such a clumsy time
i'm deciding if it's time
i'm careful but no sure how it goes
you can lose yourself in your courage
when the time we have now ends
when the big hand goes round again
can you still feel the butterflies?
can you still hear the last goodnight?
jimmy eat world
Monday, June 2, 2008
| ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population. |
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| Enneagram Test Results
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Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
trait snapshot:
introverted, irritable, feels invisible, observer, depressed, does not enjoy leadership, reveals little about self, dislikes large parties, feels undesirable, does not like to stand out, submissive, suspicious, emotionally sensitive, not a thrill seeker, solitude loving, likes silence, fragile, second guesses self, negative, unadventurous, fearful, weird, focuses on people's hidden motives, paranoid, phobic, dependent, cautious, avoidant, semi intellectual
I sound like a real drag...
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Well...
I totally did not "shut up" like I said I would a few months ago. Too bad...
I am back in the South bay for 2.5 days. So far, I have not gone to the mall, nor have I tried Red Mango. I have, however, spent nearly $10 on froyo for myself at Tartini. I have no self control when it comes to self-serve desserts! Ack.
Mmmmm lychee tart yogurt....mmmmm canned lychee....mmmmm canned longan...mmmm QQ coconut jelly!!
I also attempted to swim in our newly remodeled and professionally-cleaned pool. Unfortunately, it was freezing cold. I stood in the water for a good twenty minutes bracing myself for human popsicle-ness. Then, the swimming filter thingy came up beside me and squirted water right in my face. I was outraged.
I cursed at it and decided that this was a sign to jump in. So I did, and even after 40 laps, I was still cold. My ears hurt from coldness...but I survived, and that is what's important.
I am back in the South bay for 2.5 days. So far, I have not gone to the mall, nor have I tried Red Mango. I have, however, spent nearly $10 on froyo for myself at Tartini. I have no self control when it comes to self-serve desserts! Ack.
Mmmmm lychee tart yogurt....mmmmm canned lychee....mmmmm canned longan...mmmm QQ coconut jelly!!
I also attempted to swim in our newly remodeled and professionally-cleaned pool. Unfortunately, it was freezing cold. I stood in the water for a good twenty minutes bracing myself for human popsicle-ness. Then, the swimming filter thingy came up beside me and squirted water right in my face. I was outraged.
I cursed at it and decided that this was a sign to jump in. So I did, and even after 40 laps, I was still cold. My ears hurt from coldness...but I survived, and that is what's important.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Look Up - Stars
your friends hold the lullabies
they watch the way the night lies
soft sounds; heads like a radio
hearts wrapped in blankets laying low
hearts wrapped in blankets laying low
you're cold, maybe you just missed the sun
you fall, feeling like it's just begun
so far, keeping it together's been enough
look up, rain is falling, looks like love
your boy is like a memory
with some sense of touch and melody
your girl, she's a renegade
a hurricane that keeps you there, safe
hurricane that keeps you there, safe
you're cold, maybe you just missed the sun
you fall, feeling like it's just begun
so far, keeping it together's been enough
look up, rain is falling, looks like love
they watch the way the night lies
soft sounds; heads like a radio
hearts wrapped in blankets laying low
hearts wrapped in blankets laying low
you're cold, maybe you just missed the sun
you fall, feeling like it's just begun
so far, keeping it together's been enough
look up, rain is falling, looks like love
your boy is like a memory
with some sense of touch and melody
your girl, she's a renegade
a hurricane that keeps you there, safe
hurricane that keeps you there, safe
you're cold, maybe you just missed the sun
you fall, feeling like it's just begun
so far, keeping it together's been enough
look up, rain is falling, looks like love
Update on Life
Well, I've finally managed to click my way to the top of my 27-friend Pyramid on the Brain Game. I'm prepared to lose my crown though...but I will persist.
This summer shall be spent doing research and *hopefully* volunteering somewhere...I have yet to make the call.
Life is going pretty good I think. There are certain things I still need to deal with. I'm seeing a counselor for the first time in my life, though I've been recommended twice before. Being a Psychology student now though, I don't see it as something to be ashamed of in the least. I actually find it kind of nice...partially because my SHIP insurance covers one semester completely.
While I don't really feel like I need to see her, it's kind of nice to know that there's that extra support. Friends, family, and significant others are of course, there for me too, but it's not really the same. What I tell them, and if I cry or whatever...it affects them in ways I don't want them to be affected.
Another development of mine as of late is that my toenail has fallen off. It doesn't hurt though...I wonder how it will look in flip-flops. So far, I've kept it hanging on there with my nifty bandages.
I also realized that I haven't been to a mall in ages. Gonna be about 2 months soon, it's crazy. Hopefully I've been spending a lot less money then; I'm kinda afraid it's all been spent on my current Froyo addiction. I probably have it five times a week. Gonna try Red Mango next week...AND go shopping! Hurray.
My mood goes up and down, but I'm going to try to be happyhappyhappy like the Chinese man tells us to be. After all, do I really have a good reason not to be? Haven't seen that guy lately though. I wonder what happened to Triangle man also? Berkeley's awesome characters are gone :(
Happy thoughts of the day: I'm so thankful for my health, for my loving family, for the wonderful people around me, for the opportunities I've gotten, for my research positions, for having enough money, and for my brain which is functional enough for me to achieve my goals (thus far).
So right now I have a love affair with Stars. Gonna post up their lyrics :)
This summer shall be spent doing research and *hopefully* volunteering somewhere...I have yet to make the call.
Life is going pretty good I think. There are certain things I still need to deal with. I'm seeing a counselor for the first time in my life, though I've been recommended twice before. Being a Psychology student now though, I don't see it as something to be ashamed of in the least. I actually find it kind of nice...partially because my SHIP insurance covers one semester completely.
While I don't really feel like I need to see her, it's kind of nice to know that there's that extra support. Friends, family, and significant others are of course, there for me too, but it's not really the same. What I tell them, and if I cry or whatever...it affects them in ways I don't want them to be affected.
Another development of mine as of late is that my toenail has fallen off. It doesn't hurt though...I wonder how it will look in flip-flops. So far, I've kept it hanging on there with my nifty bandages.
I also realized that I haven't been to a mall in ages. Gonna be about 2 months soon, it's crazy. Hopefully I've been spending a lot less money then; I'm kinda afraid it's all been spent on my current Froyo addiction. I probably have it five times a week. Gonna try Red Mango next week...AND go shopping! Hurray.
My mood goes up and down, but I'm going to try to be happyhappyhappy like the Chinese man tells us to be. After all, do I really have a good reason not to be? Haven't seen that guy lately though. I wonder what happened to Triangle man also? Berkeley's awesome characters are gone :(
Happy thoughts of the day: I'm so thankful for my health, for my loving family, for the wonderful people around me, for the opportunities I've gotten, for my research positions, for having enough money, and for my brain which is functional enough for me to achieve my goals (thus far).
So right now I have a love affair with Stars. Gonna post up their lyrics :)
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
From the mouth of my Stats Professor:
Student: If you go to a Bayesian and say you have a treatment and control group, "Does my treatment work?" What do they go off and do and tell you?
Professor: I will give you an analogy. The Bayesian would say you can milk a pig but nobody wants pig milk. But what you want is a cow, and I can give you a cow and you can milk it but then you would want to pretend it's a pig. So screw that and go with the cow. Don't test the hypothesis.
Professor: I will give you an analogy. The Bayesian would say you can milk a pig but nobody wants pig milk. But what you want is a cow, and I can give you a cow and you can milk it but then you would want to pretend it's a pig. So screw that and go with the cow. Don't test the hypothesis.
Food For Thought
Tiny, Flat-Chested, and Hairless
So Joanne linked me this article, in which a White woman describes her encounter with a White guy suffering from Yellow Fever. If you ask me, Courtney Weaver just might fall into the category of a Bitter White Woman.
Here is a list of stereotypes I've gathered from this article.
White men who like Asian woman are...
1. Pedophilic
2. Not worthy of the author anyway
3. Loners--Rejects of society
4. Nerdy looking, short
5. Socially awkward
6. Sissies
7. Repulsive
Asian women are...
1. Tiny
2. Flat-chested
3. Hairless
4. Docile little maids
5. Bossy housewives
6. Exotic
7. Sexually experienced animals in bed
8. Servile in bed
9. NOT tighter
10. If ABCs, want a strong Western man because Asian men are effeminate
(Koreans are the most beautiful BUT wear too much make-up)
That was fun. Thank you Courtney Weaver, for showing us how inferior we Asian women are to you, and how men who are attracted to Asian women are perverts. Thank you for putting us into a little box of Asian-ness. Gotta love how all of the stereotypes you've stuck in your readers' minds basically say that "Asian women suck." In more ways than one.
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I'm actually more amused at Ms. Weaver, than angry or anything. Having taken all these ridiculous Asian American Studies courses has numbed my brain. It is understandable that she is bitter at Asian women. She, like many, many other people, has internalized images of Asian women that the media feeds her, and resents that society uses these images to pressure her and other White women to be servile and sexually abiding to men. Thus, she takes out her anger on Asian women (and our so-called physical attributes, no less!) and the men who like them. This certainly saves her ego.
But maybe, instead...she should try meeting some Asians, like Joanne said. Maybe she'd realize that we're actually human and NO WE'RE NOT ALL THE SAME. We are not necessarily super dominant, bitchy, animalistic Dragon Ladies, nor are we super submissive, servile China Dolls, Lotus Blossoms, or Geisha Girls. We're just people for God's sake. And yes, some of us do need to shave. And some are fat and have boobs, and some of these "Pedophilic White men" may still find us attractive OMG.
But I can find no words to defend Ted. He does seem like a loser, who likewise, has skewed ideas about Asian women. I would amend the author's words: "the kind of men who ONLY went for Asian women were not men I wanted to have anything to do with." Guys who ONLY go for women of a certain race (especially if they themselves aren't of that race) aren't good little fishies.
So Joanne linked me this article, in which a White woman describes her encounter with a White guy suffering from Yellow Fever. If you ask me, Courtney Weaver just might fall into the category of a Bitter White Woman.
Here is a list of stereotypes I've gathered from this article.
White men who like Asian woman are...
1. Pedophilic
2. Not worthy of the author anyway
3. Loners--Rejects of society
4. Nerdy looking, short
5. Socially awkward
6. Sissies
7. Repulsive
Asian women are...
1. Tiny
2. Flat-chested
3. Hairless
4. Docile little maids
5. Bossy housewives
6. Exotic
7. Sexually experienced animals in bed
8. Servile in bed
9. NOT tighter
10. If ABCs, want a strong Western man because Asian men are effeminate
(Koreans are the most beautiful BUT wear too much make-up)
That was fun. Thank you Courtney Weaver, for showing us how inferior we Asian women are to you, and how men who are attracted to Asian women are perverts. Thank you for putting us into a little box of Asian-ness. Gotta love how all of the stereotypes you've stuck in your readers' minds basically say that "Asian women suck." In more ways than one.
--
I'm actually more amused at Ms. Weaver, than angry or anything. Having taken all these ridiculous Asian American Studies courses has numbed my brain. It is understandable that she is bitter at Asian women. She, like many, many other people, has internalized images of Asian women that the media feeds her, and resents that society uses these images to pressure her and other White women to be servile and sexually abiding to men. Thus, she takes out her anger on Asian women (and our so-called physical attributes, no less!) and the men who like them. This certainly saves her ego.
But maybe, instead...she should try meeting some Asians, like Joanne said. Maybe she'd realize that we're actually human and NO WE'RE NOT ALL THE SAME. We are not necessarily super dominant, bitchy, animalistic Dragon Ladies, nor are we super submissive, servile China Dolls, Lotus Blossoms, or Geisha Girls. We're just people for God's sake. And yes, some of us do need to shave. And some are fat and have boobs, and some of these "Pedophilic White men" may still find us attractive OMG.
But I can find no words to defend Ted. He does seem like a loser, who likewise, has skewed ideas about Asian women. I would amend the author's words: "the kind of men who ONLY went for Asian women were not men I wanted to have anything to do with." Guys who ONLY go for women of a certain race (especially if they themselves aren't of that race) aren't good little fishies.
Monday, May 5, 2008
List of My Dreams
As instructed by my Dove Promise, in no particular order.
1. Get into Grad school for psychology
2. Get a well-paying job I enjoy.
3. Happiness
4. Health (Impossible, at a certain age)
5. Happiness and Health for those close to me. Well, since I'm dreaming, how about everyone?
6. Being in a happy, fulfilling marriage
7. Having happy, healthy, well-adjusted children (I will try my best not to screw them up)
8. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
1. Get into Grad school for psychology
2. Get a well-paying job I enjoy.
3. Happiness
4. Health (Impossible, at a certain age)
5. Happiness and Health for those close to me. Well, since I'm dreaming, how about everyone?
6. Being in a happy, fulfilling marriage
7. Having happy, healthy, well-adjusted children (I will try my best not to screw them up)
8. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Eh?
What was with the comment on my last entry? Nothing like bot-spam to make a person feel validated.
Feeling a bit blah right now...probably cuz my mind has been numbed by a few hours of tedious work. This is one of the few times in so long that I've actually had time for myself to sit and think and write in this thing (As I've put aside my work, and I'm only chatting with one person right now...).
Life has been fair to me, for the most part, since I last checked in. Many things I worry about, but I distract myself from one thing by thinking about the other.
I've gotten so lazy with my journaling. Never really wanna write anything down.
Things are now too crazy to even try to sort out. Wouldn't know where to start. I must say that I never cease to amaze myself...for someone who started out so unbearably shy and who still is quite introverted...not sure why I'm here. It would be so very funny if we could write letters to our past selves...and *receive* them. Craziness. I never would have believed myself.
Good thing is that my coping skills have gotten a lot better. Also, I feel like most things that trouble me are sort of my fault anyway. But, no more of that I-wish-I-were-dead crap from 10 years ago, no more ____, no more alcohol, no more mindless drunken hookups.
Here's my current obsession: Enur - Calabria.
Feeling a bit blah right now...probably cuz my mind has been numbed by a few hours of tedious work. This is one of the few times in so long that I've actually had time for myself to sit and think and write in this thing (As I've put aside my work, and I'm only chatting with one person right now...).
Life has been fair to me, for the most part, since I last checked in. Many things I worry about, but I distract myself from one thing by thinking about the other.
I've gotten so lazy with my journaling. Never really wanna write anything down.
Things are now too crazy to even try to sort out. Wouldn't know where to start. I must say that I never cease to amaze myself...for someone who started out so unbearably shy and who still is quite introverted...not sure why I'm here. It would be so very funny if we could write letters to our past selves...and *receive* them. Craziness. I never would have believed myself.
Good thing is that my coping skills have gotten a lot better. Also, I feel like most things that trouble me are sort of my fault anyway. But, no more of that I-wish-I-were-dead crap from 10 years ago, no more ____, no more alcohol, no more mindless drunken hookups.
Here's my current obsession: Enur - Calabria.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
life
preparing myself for months/years of hell and what not.
but you gotta do what you gotta do.
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other things i really need to get on top of.
1. sleeping habits: goal is to sleep earlier, wake up earlier.
2. eating habits: stop pigging out, especially at night, eat healthy foods rather than junk food. i feel like i've gained 5 pounds since this semester started. i wish it didn't bother me so much, but it does.
3. figuring out what i want before i hurt people than i already have.
but you gotta do what you gotta do.
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other things i really need to get on top of.
1. sleeping habits: goal is to sleep earlier, wake up earlier.
2. eating habits: stop pigging out, especially at night, eat healthy foods rather than junk food. i feel like i've gained 5 pounds since this semester started. i wish it didn't bother me so much, but it does.
3. figuring out what i want before i hurt people than i already have.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Religion
I'm not normally into religion, but I do admit it can be beautiful sometimes...such as in the recent case of the 2 faced girl born in India. She's being worshiped as a goddess and I do think that's a wonderful thing. Without religion, it would just be...a deformity, a handicap, ugliness, something that needs to be fixed...
So it follows, ignorance is bliss...but knowledge is power. Most of the time, I'll take the latter...
So it follows, ignorance is bliss...but knowledge is power. Most of the time, I'll take the latter...
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
honey and the moon
don't know why i'm still afraid
if you weren't real i would make you up
now
i wish i could follow through
i know that your love is true
and deep
as the sea
but right now
everything you want is wrong
and right now
all your dreams are waking up
and right now
i wish i could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives
remember when we first met
and everything was still a bet
in love's game
you would call; i'd call you back
and then i'd leave
a message
on your answering machine
but right now
everything is turning blue
and right now
the sun is trying to kill the moon
and right now
i wish i could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives
freedom
run away tonight
freedom
run away tonight
we're made out of blood and rust
looking for someone to trust
without
a fight
i think that you came too soon
you're the honey and the moon
that lights
up my night
we've got too much time to kill
like pigeons on my windowsill
we hang around
ever since i've been with you
you hold me up
all the time i've fallen down
but right now
everything is turning blue
and right now
the sun is trying to kill the moon
and right now
i wish i could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives
if you weren't real i would make you up
now
i wish i could follow through
i know that your love is true
and deep
as the sea
but right now
everything you want is wrong
and right now
all your dreams are waking up
and right now
i wish i could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives
remember when we first met
and everything was still a bet
in love's game
you would call; i'd call you back
and then i'd leave
a message
on your answering machine
but right now
everything is turning blue
and right now
the sun is trying to kill the moon
and right now
i wish i could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives
freedom
run away tonight
freedom
run away tonight
we're made out of blood and rust
looking for someone to trust
without
a fight
i think that you came too soon
you're the honey and the moon
that lights
up my night
we've got too much time to kill
like pigeons on my windowsill
we hang around
ever since i've been with you
you hold me up
all the time i've fallen down
but right now
everything is turning blue
and right now
the sun is trying to kill the moon
and right now
i wish i could follow you
to the shores
of freedom
where no one lives
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
robert frost
whose woods these are i think i know
his house is in the village though
he will not see me stopping here
to watch his woods fill up with snow
my little horse must think it queer
to stop without a farmhouse near
between the woods and frozen lake
the darkest evening of the year
he gives his harness bells a shake
to ask if there is some mistake
the only other sound's the sweep
of easy wind and downy flake
the woods are lovely, dark and deep
but i have promises to keep
and miles to go before i sleep
and miles to go before i sleep
his house is in the village though
he will not see me stopping here
to watch his woods fill up with snow
my little horse must think it queer
to stop without a farmhouse near
between the woods and frozen lake
the darkest evening of the year
he gives his harness bells a shake
to ask if there is some mistake
the only other sound's the sweep
of easy wind and downy flake
the woods are lovely, dark and deep
but i have promises to keep
and miles to go before i sleep
and miles to go before i sleep
Saturday, March 1, 2008
i am rapidly expanding
i wonder how much fat i've gained in the last few weeks. nastyyy...
::sigh::
my body feels abused by all the junk food i put in it.
::sigh::
my body feels abused by all the junk food i put in it.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
damien rice - volcano
don't hold yourself like that
you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth and back
but that's all i need
don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea
don't throw yourself like that
in front of me
i kissed your mouth your back
is that all you need?
don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for what i give to you
is just what i'm going through
this is nothing new
no just another phase of finding what i really need
is what makes me bleed
and like a new disease she's still too young to treat
volcanoes melt me down
she's still too young
i kissed your mouth
you do not need me
you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth and back
but that's all i need
don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea
don't throw yourself like that
in front of me
i kissed your mouth your back
is that all you need?
don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for what i give to you
is just what i'm going through
this is nothing new
no just another phase of finding what i really need
is what makes me bleed
and like a new disease she's still too young to treat
volcanoes melt me down
she's still too young
i kissed your mouth
you do not need me
Monday, February 18, 2008
Mother says...
Just be friends with everyone. You're so young. You should meet people. Be careful and keep a distance or you might get burned. Blablabla...
Can I do it?
Can I do it?
Saturday, February 9, 2008
From Blossoms - Li-Young Lee
From blossoms comes
this brown paper bag of peaches
we bought from the joy
at the bend in the road where we turned toward
signs painted Peaches
From laden boughs, from hands
from sweet fellowship in the bins
comes nectar at the roadside, succulent
peaches we devour, dusty skin and all,
comes the familiar dust of summer, dust we eat
oh to take what we love inside
to carry within us an orchard, to eat
not only the skin, but the shade
not only the sugar, but the days, to hold
the fruit in our hands, adore it, then bite into
the round jubilance of a peach
there are days we live
as if death were nowhere
in the background; from joy
to joy to joy, from wing to wing,
from blossom to blossom to
impossible blossom, to sweet impossible blossom
this brown paper bag of peaches
we bought from the joy
at the bend in the road where we turned toward
signs painted Peaches
From laden boughs, from hands
from sweet fellowship in the bins
comes nectar at the roadside, succulent
peaches we devour, dusty skin and all,
comes the familiar dust of summer, dust we eat
oh to take what we love inside
to carry within us an orchard, to eat
not only the skin, but the shade
not only the sugar, but the days, to hold
the fruit in our hands, adore it, then bite into
the round jubilance of a peach
there are days we live
as if death were nowhere
in the background; from joy
to joy to joy, from wing to wing,
from blossom to blossom to
impossible blossom, to sweet impossible blossom
Friday, February 1, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
too much sleep?
so i wake up this morning, and look at the clock and can't believe my eyes. 3:40 pm. do i really need 13 hours of sleep a day? i surely hope not, or i'm screwed...
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
1973
i would call you up every saturday night
and we'd both stay out til the morning light
and we sang "here we go again"
and though time goes by
i will always be in a club with you in 1973
singing "here we go again"
and we'd both stay out til the morning light
and we sang "here we go again"
and though time goes by
i will always be in a club with you in 1973
singing "here we go again"
Thursday, January 10, 2008
reamonn
You can tell by the way
She walks that she's my girl
You can tell by the way she talks she rules the world
You can see in her eyes that no one is her Chi
She's my girl my Supergirl
And then she'd say it's OK I got lost on the way
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls don't cry
And she'd say it's all right I got home late last night
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly
And then she'd say that nothing can go wrong
When you're in love what can go wrong
And then she'd laugh the night time into the day
Pushing her fears further along
And then she'd say it's OK I got lost on the way
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls don't cry
And she'd say it's all right I got home late last night
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly
Then she'd shout down the line tell me she's got no more time
Cause she's a Supergirl and Supergirls don't cry
Then she'd scream in my face tell me to leave leave this place
Cause she's a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly
She's a Supergirl a Supergirl
She's sowing seeds she's burning trees
She's sowing seeds she's burning trees
She's a Supergirl a Supergirl
A Supergirl my Supergirl
She walks that she's my girl
You can tell by the way she talks she rules the world
You can see in her eyes that no one is her Chi
She's my girl my Supergirl
And then she'd say it's OK I got lost on the way
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls don't cry
And she'd say it's all right I got home late last night
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly
And then she'd say that nothing can go wrong
When you're in love what can go wrong
And then she'd laugh the night time into the day
Pushing her fears further along
And then she'd say it's OK I got lost on the way
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls don't cry
And she'd say it's all right I got home late last night
But I'm a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly
Then she'd shout down the line tell me she's got no more time
Cause she's a Supergirl and Supergirls don't cry
Then she'd scream in my face tell me to leave leave this place
Cause she's a Supergirl and Supergirls just fly
She's a Supergirl a Supergirl
She's sowing seeds she's burning trees
She's sowing seeds she's burning trees
She's a Supergirl a Supergirl
A Supergirl my Supergirl
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
do you remember once upon a time
when you were mine
the stars above were bright and new
i pulled them down for you
just when i fell in love again
you said that all good things must end
i never had a head for solitaire
it's so unfair
that i should have my chance and lose
feel like i've been used to help you
through another night
you spelled it out in black and white
the tides that had once carried you away
they bring you back today
the time has washed away my pain
you'll find that things have changed
and disappeared without a trace
you can't get back what you've erased
and i say
baby, that's just the way it is baby
when you were mine
the stars above were bright and new
i pulled them down for you
just when i fell in love again
you said that all good things must end
i never had a head for solitaire
it's so unfair
that i should have my chance and lose
feel like i've been used to help you
through another night
you spelled it out in black and white
the tides that had once carried you away
they bring you back today
the time has washed away my pain
you'll find that things have changed
and disappeared without a trace
you can't get back what you've erased
and i say
baby, that's just the way it is baby
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